my latest love affair

Miranda July writes fiction?! I did not know this {: can't wait to read up on her in egypt over the next two weeks. Won't be blogging in a while but when I next do I will have some fab-ul-uso photos ^-^

there's nothing british about the 'british national party'

there's too much debate about it, but so many of my friends have voted bnp. And without sounding overly mouthly I have the following points:
1. What are the bnp going to do, now they're in the european union constituency, about equal rights in the workplace/ethnic minority representation.
2. No one in the u.k can say they're 100% pure bred english, not even the lady at buckingham p.
3. We asked for immigration after the second world war to boost economy - one of the biggest government drives I do believe we've ever seen
4. Our economy would die if it weren't for many of the people moving over to work here. 'stealing british jobs' pft. They can't get engineers who are half arsed to get qualified over here (FACT).
5. WHAT was the point in all our predecessors fighting against a fascist regime in world war two? you're disrespecting the lives lost and mass 'british' comeradery of all our gramps. boo!

there's more but I'm in college and going home noow!

someday I'll be far out enough I can't go looking for trouble

L@@K at what I got as belated birthday presents {:











Protruding through the pictures these hate-all faces claim my mind. Skies are blind, trees are blind - I stick out like a sore thumb with my open eyes. I see myself a lark, caged in this colour-blind vortex -- suddenly a prism splits, I claim my name; etched in Onyx.~*~

Exams have been absolutely ghastly. The worst thing is I now know what I'm letting myself in for and have another week of synoptics ahead of me. I know I have Egypt at the end but I'm finding it hard to not let packing and whatnot take priority. The chances of me getting into brum are looking slimmer by the day, i just feel utterly swamped ) : bright side = all my english literature exams / most important / are over. So a little less pressure I guess.

'you know where I eat lunch'

BRENDAN: I'd bull the lot of them, Em, I'd burn
down the whole party if they tried to
play you again. Jerr and whoever's next.
I want to keep you safe.


EMILY: You can't keep me safe, Brendan. I'm in
a bigger world now, and you can't hide
me from it, and you can't beat it. Not
if I don't want you to.

"greatest good" a short film about hedonism

WATCH!@#$

I spent six months making this, with the aid of my best friends, iain and keith the technician {: entering it into the film festival in manchester (I don't remember it's actual name?!) though cannot upload it into youtube to to their retarded new policy. NOTE: this isn't an anti drugs film, it's an anti lifestyle film. A couple of people reviewing it made some lameass comments about it being an educational film when it clearly isn't... both 21/22 year old drop outs doing btec, thurs a suprise. SO just to clear that up!

A new sash on an old dress

It seems weird looking back on my old writing - thinking how much I've changed in style since then and how everything's changed generally. So many people have now started their own blogspot/blogger accounts yet I'm proud to say I've had mine for far longer than you have so xP Thought it's about time I actually started publishing entries.

Yes, after a bit of a break from a time of real emotional uproar, I feel pretty settled. But still as if I have a great deal to learn. I thought, rather aptly, that documenting this journey in a way I could share it with strangers/stalkers would help me to lose the defensiveness I've picked up along the way so far. At the moment, my primary focus is living up to my full potential in at least my english a levels. I don't want to spend summer in regret of how much harder I could've worked. It's getting pretty chaotic. Better get back to that in a few minutes, but for now - I feel as if, most of all, I need to develop a new kind of perception of those around me. Some sort of better emotional intelligence. I'm too like a guy in that respect, just blundering through things without really thinking.

Another, more physical kinda goals I want to reach in the next six weeks-ish includes getting a job, start saving! I need to get rid of some junk in various carboot sales/ebay scouts too. Mum's agreed to go twos on a mac for me if I do good in my A-levels (basically I need to get enough to get into uni).

I'll wait untill my exams are pretty much done to update, speak soon bloggers xox
(NOTE: upon purchasin a camera, I will also add a few pictures to my blogs so my big dumb words are complemented visually!)